Once upon a time, a long time ago in a land far away there lived a great CFRE. One evening following a meal served by a man of greatness, he discovered a magnificent investment in silver, and jumped on it immediately. Later he discovered that it was an investment in the death of everything he held dear. He had lived for goodness, and invested in shiny, silvery beauty, and ended up the paragon of betrayal for all time.
Ed, life is not manifested in death, goodness in evil, or salvation in fund raising. It is in the love and protection of innocence that you uphold and further Jesus Christ and everything he taught and lived. I hope and pray that you find the love and goodness you are having to fake before the noose of self immolation falls around your neck.